MELISSA C. BURCH - MY JOURNEY THROUGH WAR AND PEACE,
EXPLORATIONS OF A YOUNG FILMMAKER, FEMINIST, AND SPIRITUAL SEEKER – TO COME OUR
MARCH 1, 2016
Try – if you can – to read this
book ABSOLUTELY NOT as an autobiography because as such it is exactly what you
are not supposed to do in many situations, particularly dangerous situations. I
take it as a true confession of many episodes in the character’s life, a
confession of the character and not the author. In such confidential and
confessional writings truth is no longer what actually happened but what could
be learned, what the character reminisces and these recollections must be
understood as both real material experiential events and at the same time a
mixture and crisscrossing of material elements and fantasized elements for the
whole to be meaningful and effective for the reader.
What I say here will be crystal
clear after the two war correspondent episodes. These two episodes are saying
that without any real training, without any real warning, without any real
anything a 21 year old woman that we will consider as no longer virginal,
without even mentioning of pills and other contraceptive means that would have
been the number ONE recommendation, that this young woman jumps into one of the
worst episodes of jihad, the Islamic war against non Islamic Russians or
Soviets if you prefer, in both cases, without any real training in Islam and
the place of women in Islam, without the fundamental elements that could only
enable her maybe to go through, like a veil, and a complete veil if possible
first of all and there are many other elements to take into account. If in such
a state of total non-preparation this woman survived let’s say not too much
bruised is in itself a divine miracle.
By bruising I mean the rape she
suggests in Pakistan from some guide and the semi-rape she suffers too between
Pakistan and Afghanistan from an 11 year old boy in the female quarter of a
private home, showing that up to a certain age that we generally call puberty
boys are entrusted to women and can or must live with them in the female
quarter of a private home. She does not mention that because probably she does
not know. For a boy to be admitted among men in this culture some particular
rites and rituals must be fulfilled and they can’t be fulfilled before that
certain age we used to call the age of reason (12 in the Christian
tradition).
But in such a situation a woman
has nothing to say, nothing to do because she did not protect the men from
their desire by covering themselves from top to toe. Strangely enough, after
the second rape or rape attempt she will cover herself fully, though it must
only have been for a short while, but she should have known that from the very
start. Such a woman is despised by all Muslim men but it generally does not go beyond
if such a woman is not a member of a Muslim family because then that Muslim
family would consider this woman had soiled the honor of the family and would
require the normal sentence for such a crime, which is being stoned to death.
But if it were only that we could
say this character has been lucky not to suffer more in her “exhibitionism”
because that’s what her attitude would be considered to be by a very
traditional, even moderate, Muslim family. Iran right now is going through
some evolution that develops a fashion movement for the way women dress. But it
has nothing to do with miniskirts or jeans. It has to with fashionable veils,
in fashionable fabric with fashionable designs and colors that are far from
black. Even in a city like Paris the women who are wearing the Islamic veil,
which cannot be the full veil of fundamentalists because it would be against
local law, are showing a great imagination and creativity in the fabric they
choose and the patterns, motifs, etc., of the decoration of this veil. You can
see that in the street, and we are not in the Afghan mountains in 1982 and 1983
among those who were going to become the Talibans.
In other words she went through
some kind of miraculous epiphany twice since she should normally have been stoned
to death within two days the first time and there would have been no second
time.
But the character in her
confessions goes miles further.
In her first mission in Afghanistan she
is finally more or less sympathizing with one commander in her little Jihadist
group, Commander Doc, she has an intimate episode with him who is a married
man, she is invited to his family home and she knows what she is doing. She
knows that it is adultery and that if the normal Islamic law were implemented
she would be stoned to death and the man would not even get the slightest reprimand.
He would have taken advantage of a western exhibitionist, which proves nothing
about him, except that he is a man and he knows what is good for him in various
situations. He would certainly have not touched her if she had been a Muslim,
and anyway if she had been a Muslim she would not have been there in jeans
riding horses, using cameras and taking pictures.
Then we wonder why in the second
mission she does exactly the same mistake that leads her first to the rape and
attempted rape and then she is defended by one of the two commanders of the
group, Baba Fawad, who accepts her inside a mosque for the night in the
mountains along with the men. And this female character has an adulterous liaison
with the man who is married and has four wives. And she even goes further and
suggests that she could bring him to New
York. I just wonder why and what for? He would be
ostracized. He would be an immigrant for a short visa and then an illegal
immigrant who would have to marry the first American woman available to become
an American citizen, with no training, no profession, no future, etc. What does
that character has in her mind at that moment? She would create the worst
possible illusion and dream that would lead to the worst possible frustration,
at least, if not traumatic experience. PTSS good morning, should I say Vietnam? This
female character exposes how blind, self-centered and irresponsible one can be
in such dangerous situations.
She was young you would say and
the character is obviously a flashing warning light for more candidates who
would like to do the same today in Syria for instance, on the Islamic State’s
side of course. With a photographer who had been a war correspondent in
ex-Yugoslavia during the wars there, him and I, we manage to prevent one niece
of mine from going on a peaceful and pacifying mission in the heart of Muslim
Yugoslavia just after the war. My friend explained her that it was not exactly
a safe place for a western woman who would neither be a Muslim nor respect the
basic customs of Muslim women. She chose Georgia instead and that was
definitely a better choice, and a relief.
I have been in dangerous areas
like Zaire (Kinshasa)
in 1967-68 under Mobutu and in 2005
in Sri Lanka
(where I was greeted two days after my arrival by LTTE militants assassinating
the Tamil Minister of Foreign Affairs in Colombo.
In both cases I was a man and I was not directly involved in the zones where
violence was happening, but even so we were carefully prepared and advised not
to do some things, not to look arrogant, not to look anything but humble. I
entirely lived for one month in a black neighborhood in Kinshasa, sharing a home with an African
family, and even though I was accepted and even though this zone was peaceful,
I was supposed to be cautious, at least cautious. And this neighborhood was a
Christian parish, which makes things quite different.
Maybe I have said enough about
this character in such situations but it is obvious that this character should
not have survived the various adulterous episodes she went through. Either she
is fantasizing them or she was divinely lucky. Maybe her being stoned to death
would have been a monstrous murder, but I just wonder how she managed to do what
she says she did without getting into real trouble.
The second big chunk of this
character’s saga I want to discuss is her sexual orientation and marital
projects. That has to do a lot with what this character tells us of her family,
mother and father essentially.
They all survived, including the
father who was burnt 40%, a rather unwise thing the father did. When gluing
some tiles in the kitchen of their home, the heating apparently on, I mean some
kind of open fire furnace, with no ventilation, he caused a serious explosion
when the vapors of the glue he was using, probably what’s more without a mask,
caught fire. She was apparently traumatized by it. On the other hand the mother
with whom she lived all her youth, including of course after the divorce, was
an economist working for the Federal Reserve and she was a very serious
alcoholic who will die of it. She obviously lived that situation as traumatic.
The character thus had no hope to be fully balanced because these traumatic
circumstances developed in her a Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome that made her
at least psychotic: “I am different. I can’t be assimilated in the world, so I
will build my own world where I can integrate. Or I will try to force the real
world to change the way it will make me able to integrate.”
That’s why this character goes to
Afghanistan,
out of defiance. She gets into filmmaking for the same reason, to build her own
discourse against the world. She would never be a journalist that goes on a
mission and does what he or she is asked to do and then lets the medium he or
she is working for do the wrapping up and the broadcasting. The character
wanted to impose her own vision and of course she failed. So she got connected
to an independent producer, Sarah, who has the same name as her mother: do not
believe Freudian transference does not exist. Though she is officially engaged
with a Greek sailor who is doing his military service in the Greek armed forces
and who intends to marry her – and she says she intends to do just that – yet
she asserts she wants an open relationship for her but she wants a life partner
she won’t have to share. Not seeing the contradiction she even goes deeper into
it.
She develops a lesbian
relationship with the producer Sarah, thus getting her mother by transference
and thus demonstrating a male Oedipus complex, which is at least difficult to
assume in a world where a man is a man and a woman a woman. And she does not
want to share Sarah. In the same way, after his military service George, the
Greek sailor, comes to New York for three months and she has a relationship
with him that she wants to be exclusive on his side while she is having a lesbian
relationship with her mother-transference that she wants exclusive on Sarah’s
side, but she states thus she does not want George and Sarah to have a
relationship of their own to fulfill what this character calls a love triangle,
and she does not see she is reproducing the broken relationship between her own
parents with her in between. She goes very far in denying George any real
position: she had suggested him to come along as a technician on a mission in
the USSR
but she rejects him at the last minute. Then she lets him go back to Greece at the
end of his three month visa. And at the same time starts developing a
non-physical relation with Sarah, in other words putting herself on a punishing
diet as for intercourse.
Later on she will finally marry
George but that will be when she meets the third Sarah (Sarah is the triple
goddess in a way, Demeter, Drimidri as she is known in my village), when she
discovers George Gurdjieff, the mixed Russian, Armenian and Greek (she is
fascinated by ternary patterns) mystic philosopher. Note of course the parallel
with George her lover. The third Sarah will be a meditation guide who will lead
her into introspecting herself along Gurdjieff’s lines. I will not discuss
these lines and the writing in this book that then borrows metaphors and other
allegories from this Gurdjieff, because that is not the stake of this section
of the book. I am interested in the character. She finally can marry George
when she has met another George that will become her spiritual mentor (at a
very vast distance, a father transference anyway) under the guidance of the
third Sarah and the main trend will be to get into normal, meaning acceptable
for society, patterns. That character is fascinated if not mesmerized and
obnubilated by these patterns, like the house of four rooms, forgetting that
then the house is a fifth entity, or the allegory of the horse, the carriage,
the driver and the master, forgetting again that this pattern does not exist if
there is not an intention, a destination, a target, a goal. No one sits in a
train if the train is not going somewhere. In fact I would suggest this
character should get in touch with Kenneth Burke and his “Grammar of Motives”
in which he gives detail about his “pentad”: the act (horse), the scene
(carriage), the agent (driver), the agency (master) and the purpose (missing
completely). Gurdjieff is only contemplating an inert inside world that goes
nowhere and turns on itself like a top or a prayer mill.
And that’s exactly where we meet
that character at the end.
“I’m on a spiritual path. There’s
no gender on the path, but I am a New Woman. I have a conscious awareness of wholeness
merging with the Divine feminine creative impulse.”
She negates “gender” and at the
same time asserts she is the “New Woman” who should be genderless, which is
maybe in agreement with her “conscious awareness of wholeness,” but then she
concludes on exactly the contrary and asserts the “Divine feminine creative
impulse.” In other words she, as a New Woman can do absolutely what she wants
because it is creative whereas of course George will have to be subservient and
obedient because he can’t have that creativity that is both divine and
feminine.
I just wonder what this character
thinks she is. That character is going to argue she is compensating for
centuries of subservience and humiliation on the side of women. I would say at
least OVER-compensating.
Then we can of course thank the
author for exposing such crazy stances that would lead anyone to doom and
catastrophe since genderless is essentially in that character’s logic the
negation of masculinity, of the male, of the father, of the lover, of the
brother, of the husband. Let them, men, satisfy their selfish carnality among
themselves. We, New Women, will select those who will be authorized to
subserviently and obediently serve us. They would inject us with millions of Kurzweilian
nanobots to keep control of us, Old Men.
That world is frightening.
Dr Jacques COULARDEAU
# posted by Dr. Jacques COULARDEAU @ 3:09 AM